Message to the guy who rejected me

I get that you're trying to be funny, and get a rise out of me. I personally don't know what you gain from it, and I will never begin to understand that type of childish behavior.

I do not find it appropriate that you joke about Matt or Ben towards me, especially not in front of other people. I have never expressed to anyone that I like Matt and even if I did that is none of your business.

I believe your humor puts others in ridicule and while some may find that funny I do not. So I would appreciate if you would keep my name from coming out of your mouth.

You are nothing more than an acquaintance to me. I do not know you enough to partake in such humor with you. I understand if you're trying to be funny and I'm taking things too seriously, I do not disregard that. However, I do not feel you know me well enough to talk to me like that. Especially not in front of others. I feel very disrespected and while you don't care, I do.

So if you are going to continue this type of behavior towards me I would appreciate you just don't speak to me and especially do not speak of me.

Thanks,

Emma

The first one is a sad one

Sorry I've been MIA but I've been so incredibly busy with the family visiting. Today is my first day back home since Christmas and this feeling of nostalgia is all over me.

I tend to forget why I hate New Years so much, but I was quickly slapped in the face with that at midnight last night. This is the second year in a row I've been alone on New Years. I should have wrangled up a date, but where? I have been having the dry spell from hell.

First of all Dentist never called and I decided not to go visit Midland. I wanted to cry so badly when everyone around me was bringing in the new year with a kiss, the feeling of loneliness overwhelmed me.

I am not a needy person but today I just want someone to care for. I know he will come when I least expect it, but Jesus could you just hurry up a little bit?

Dear Parents that I love so much,

Stop stealing my car! I know that you are also aware that I have no social life, but sometimes I make plans.

Sorry Snippy!

Remember when I was 16 and you'd hide the keys from me because I was in trouble? Yeah, remember? Well I'm going to start doing that to you guys. Only if I do I end up being the selfish, spoiled, brat anyway.

The only reason I'd ever have kids is so that for once I could always be right.

I can't keep promises

I know I said that I was going to tell you all about why yesterday was such a bad day, and I would but I can't. There are things going on right now that I need to keep my mouth shut about until they are resolved.

I hope to have everything resolved tomorrow. I'm scared because I don't know how strong I can be but I know that I have to stand up for myself. I need to stop caring about others when they just don't care about me.

Too many times I watch out for the well being of others and forget my own. I can't continue to do that anymore. If they want me to care about them then I need for them to show me they care about me. I'm not going to take it anymore, things have got to change.

Bad

I have had a horrible day today. I will fill you guys in tomorrow, right now I just want to go to bed and sleep in.

I PROMISE I will let you guys in on everything tomorrow.

In the meanwhile just say a little prayer for me, send hugs, and kisses I need them.

I will also accept massages need one of those, REALLY BAD.

All good things must come to an end

Back to work tomorrow. It makes me want to throw myself on the floor, throw my arms and legs about while crying and screaming.

Actually, I kind of already did that a second ago. Yeah I'm totally really sophisticated.

I give up

I have NOTHING to write about. I've been waiting for something to pop up for days but I don't want to write about Midland anymore and I don't have anything going on.

I've been at home the past three days, watching tv, movies, doing nothing.

I'm pretty sure this is the worst I've ever sucked.

Almost quitting time

Im busy Internet, SUPER BUSY.

Stay with me, give me a break, I know I've sucked the past few days. More than usual, but it's almost all over for a good while.

Im doing the impossible at work right now, that's very stressful you know?

Just take my word for it.

I suck

Phew! Almost missed midnight, but that's ok.

I would write something meaningful except for I haven't been home since 9:30 a.m. and I just got done cooking for 20 people, I smell like fajitas and I need a shower.

Worst one so far?

Yeah I think so.

Anyone like the sound of a dying cow?

If you answered yes, then I invite you to come hear me lead Spanish worship at an event for the low income families in Lakeway. Yes, there are really poor people in Lakeway. Five trailer parks full actually. They are mostly Hispanic.

I mentioned a while back that my parents got ordained as Pastors, well they oversee the Hispanic Ministry at our church. There are only a handful of Spanish speaking members at our Church, mostly consisting of my immediate family. Our praise and worship team only sings in English.

We need worship in Spanish for this event, so my Mom volunteered me, my cousin and one of her Spanish speaking lady friends. Only to have my cousin back out last minute. The other lady sounds like an entire herd or dying cows. So this leaves just me. So I had to do what I didn't want to, I recruited my friend Carlos. Carlos is an amazing singer and Spanish speaker. However, there is a very particular reason why I didn't want him to be involved. Carlos lives with the boy who rejected me, Carlos is not one of the roommates that likes me, but I don't want to around the boy who rejected me anymore. I dread seeing him actually.

So of course we held practice at Carlos' house even though I suggested otherwise. I I didn't have a reason to object though, because I can't tell Carlos that I asked out his roommate, how embarrassing. I was hoping the boy who rejected me would just leave, but he didn't. He hung around (I will write about this in detail later) and when we said we were going to practice he volunteered to play guitar for us. I had a feeling he just wanted to point and laugh at me because rejecting me wasn't enough.

He was surprisingly nice. Turns out I'm not bad, and I'm actually singing lead in a couple of the songs. Or at least that's what they told me. I'm scared shit less. So if you'd like to come out to hear me sing or help out for a good cause, let me know. However, please read the following disclaimer:

Listen at your own risk. I will not be held responsible for any hearing damage or loss that may occur.

The biggest idiot alive

= ME!

I just noticed that I didn't have my cell phone on me. I start looking everywhere for it, and I can't find it! Im freaking out because it's my work cell phone, and I've already had one stolen previously.

My heart is racing, I feel sick to my stomach and I decide to call it and THEN:

There vibrates the little sucker, on my desk, RIGHT IN FRONT ME!

Yeah, Im losing it.

I really wish I could drink right now

DAMN IT UT!

I want to cry and get drunk, but all I can do is cry.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

What. The. Fuck.

Teh COOLEST in teh internet

Yes, Im one in the multitude of nerds bloggers who have signed up for this thing. I figured I post a lot of boring non-sense all the time anyway so why not try and get something out of it? Im really hoping I can score a t-shirt or something.


My content has seriously been sucking lately, I mean not that it was ever good to being with, but still I don't have much to tell you lately. This blog was built around my alcoholic slutty ways, and well none of that has been going on lately. ( I think my Mom is somewhere out there shouting Hallelujah!) I could claim it's writer's block, but HAH, have you read my piece of crap blog? I have no writting skills, this blog can be summed up by the following: Stupid Honduran girl bitches to the internet with horrible grammar and even more horrible cuss words.

Hell, I don't even blog about interesting crap, or about crap that matters. No, no talk of politics, world hunger or the environment on here. I bitch about not drinking, not getting any, stupid men and so on and so forth. So if you've hopped on over here because that little writing movement sent you over here, yeah sorry I suck. Sorry Im not teh coolest on teh internet.

In short dear readers, yeah THREE of you! (Hey there, how you doin'?)

Don't be surprised if the daily blogs look something like this:

Title:

Yeah today sucks. My hair sucks, not being drunk sucks and yeah I still haven't gotten any.

The end.

Yeah that sums up today so on we go to day #2.

Bah humbug!

Can you say that for Halloween? Well, Im saying it cause I am not in the halloween mood. Halloween Schmalloween, I think I'd be enjoying it if there was alcohol involved or a hot boy.

So you guys try and enjoy it for me, k?

This is revolting

Im no longer going to do the Love Thursday posts, they make me want to puke.

Im sorry I exposed you guys to that. God damn it I need my fucking alcohol, Im not sweet, Im not nice. I hate rainbows (no not gays, rainbows, I hate rainbows), bunnies, and clowns. I don't throw up peace signs, hug trees, and dream of the world being perfect.

I am self righteous, bitchy, critical, and brutally honest. Im plain fucking evil. Im evil with a little fun. Im a cunt. Im a bitchy cunt.

Normally this weekend Id be participating in Halloween activities, dressing up in a really slutty costume (I love being slutty) but instead Im going to help with the kids carnival at church and then NOTHING.

Im fucking pathetic but Im not going to drink because even though I love being a raging alcoholic I love being a bitchy cunt that is insanely stubborn even more and I will not let anyone prove me wrong. Im not going to drink because I don't want to hear, "I knew you couldn't do it!"

On December 21st Im going to go on a bender, Im going to drink Austin fucking dry, I will pass out, black out and puke all night.

Don't worry about me, I'll be ALRIGHT. I THINK.

The cat lady minus the cats

My life is BORING.

- up at 5 .m.
- work from 7 a.m. - 6 p.m.
- no more alcohol
- no boys
- no sex
- church
- no more kickball
- bed by 10 p.m.

Seriously, I need some help. The lack of alcohol has ruined my life.

I miss drunk dialing, sex, passing out, and being hung over.

What can I say? The most fun I've ever had was when I was being trashy.

How to make an ass of yourself three times in one day:

When someone at your place of employment asks you for extra badge that you borrowed, reach into your purse and pull out your cup enhancer bra insert instead of the badge.

Because really I mean it would make sense to dig into the deep dark black hole that is your purse and feel your boob enhancer because really the squishy foamy thing feels just like the hard plastic square thing. So yeah it totally makes sense to pull it out.

Most importantly when you show the person at your place of employment that you enhance your boob size you have to say, "Man, I've been looking for this."

No, seriously, I have looked like everywhere for that boob enhancer cup. I've been missing one for months, so my boobs have lacked enhancing. Not good. I should have known it was at the bottom of my purse, I mean think about it it makes sense. Im pretty sure the bottom of my purse was the hidding spot I found when I had to take the cup enhancers out before I let some guy feel me up. Ladies you have to take out boob enhancers out of the bra before you get felt up. You can't have men knowing that we cheat a lot little to get their attention.

It also totally makes sense to carry around cup enhancer bra inserts in your purse for months and months. No, seriously you never know when you will need a little enhancement of the boobs to you know well get something or someone you want. Really it makes sense.

The lack of boob enhancers: The reason I haven't gotten any in months.

You know what really sucks?

Other than the fact that you're so bored at work that you write three blogs in one day.

It sucks when one of your really good friends starts dating this guy that you thought was super hot for the longest time.

She starts dating a guy that you've lusted over and even had a few dirty thoughts with, but really no need to go there.

What really sucks about the situation is that your friend had a boyfriend for the longest time, a boyfriend whom she almost married. While she was in this relationship you and her would joke around about how hot the guy she is dating now is and how man you'd really like to do X, X and X with him.

You and her never thought that she'd end up dating the hot guy, I mean she was getting close to making the biggest committment possible. Even after that whole marriage thing doesn't end up working out for her, you don't think anything of it. Well because she just got out of something super serious and well no one starts to date seriously again right after something like that.

Well except her apparently and with your luck luck she starts dating this super hot guy who you wanted to date. What sucks even more is that you can't be mad at her, because well you never called dibs on him, and really calling dibs on someone is super stupid and it should be against the law.

So there you are in this sucky situation because you want to be so mad and jealous that they are dating and you wish you could say something. Only you don't say anything because you end up hanging out with them and they are so super cute together, and you care for them both. You can't help but be genuinely happy for them.

And then to top it all off you pray that it works out for them because if it doesn't she ruined your changes with him, FOREVER. Because no matter how hot he is and how much you still secretely still lust after him, even if they broke up, you could never date him.

So here you are wishing that you could be pissed off because damn it, SHE MESSED IT ALL UP, but then you just smile because damn you love her and you hope for her that he is the one. Because SERIOUSLY, you don't want to get into ALL THAT mess when he's no longer hers.

Because as good of a friend you're being about the current situation, you just might be tempted to throw friendship out the window because, Damn he really is THAT hot*

*I'm kidding, Im a bitch but Im not THAT big of a bitch.

Or am I? *insert evil laughter here*

And you thought church might actually do some good for me, HAH.

Rain, rain go away

This is what I look like cause of this weather:




No seriously, Im not exaggerating. Im actually being quite generous. In reality Im really not smiling, I would post a real time picture but Im afraid that my hair is too big to fit into the camera frame.

I really should have thought out this whole bangs things a bit more, at this point more than half of them are sticking sraight up. They're like, "Hey there ceiling!"

Frizzy hair, just another reason why I wish I had a penis.

I will cut you with my baby

Mom Reportedly Throws Baby at Boyfriend in Domestic Dispute
Monday, October 09, 2006


ERIE, Pa. — A woman used her 4-week-old baby as a weapon in a domestic dispute, swinging the infant through the air and striking her boyfriend with the child, authorities said. The baby was critically injured in the attack early Sunday, said District Attorney Bradley Foulk.

"Never, never, never. I can never remember anything like this," Foulk told the Erie Times-News.

Chytoria Graham, 27, of Erie, was charged with aggravated assault, reckless endangerment and simple assault. She was held Monday in the Erie County Jail in lieu of $75,000 bail.

The infant, whose name and gender were not released, was taken to a hospital in Pittsburgh. Authorities did not identify the hospital, and the baby's condition Monday was not released.

There was no immediate indication whether the man Graham is accused of attacking was the baby's father.

Authorities removed four other children from Graham's home and placed them with the Erie County Office of Children and Youth, Foulk said.

What is wrong with people?

Sometimes I feel like throwing things, keyword: things. As in objects, not people. Sometimes I even feel like throwing things at people. But a baby?

Some people should have their vagina sown shut. Seriously, this woman doesn't just need her tubes tied, she needs her damn hole shut. That's right bitch, no sex for you. Then after her hole is closed we'll hand her over to her boyfriend and let him kick the living shit out of her, and this time we won't equip her with a baby.

You know what makes me feel old? When I sit here and wonder, "What the hell is this world coming to?"

All my life that is something I only heard from my elders, and now I watch and read the news and I ask the exact same question.

Another school shooting today. The media just will not shut up about the school shootings. Sure we need to be informed, but does it have to be at the front of every single news website, newspaper, and newscast? Can you just stop talking about the school shootings for a whole five minutes?

It's not that I am not sympathetic towards the victims and communities that these shootings have happened at. As a matter of fact I think the media should just STFU about it to allow them some peace. Let them grieve and attempt to rebuild some normalcy.

What's even worse is that psychopaths feed off that shit. The mind of a psychopath is really not as complicated as everyone thinks. Read about them. They all have the same thought patttern and they have been figured out. They thrive and crave attention. So stop giving it to them. Of course these shootings have similarites, psychopaths aren't the most original people on this earth. They feed off each other, they are copy cats. Stop sharing all the details, you're mapping it out for the next one.

Some people just need to stfu, me included, so end of rant.