diverted path

I saw a piece of myself in you today. One piece. A miniscule piece. Most would find satisfaction in that. I'm never most, especially not when it comes to you. Seeing me wallow in my inadequacies is how you acquire gratification. I am the source of all your strenght.

Your lies do not betray me. I will go foward in sustaining them. I do this for you, the world revolves around you. I can't have my world stop. What would happen to you then?

You're the worst kind. You almost believe the tall tale which you've written. One by one they will fall and I will be there to hold the blame. I will take on that cowardly face because your frailty is my problem.

It's all mine. So give my little piece back, after all it never belonged there in the first place.

Christmas came early

Do you know who came into town today?

Well, yes my cousin, aunt and friend did BUT also, DENTIST!

He's in Austin, no I haven't seen him or talked to him yet but I could anytime I wanted to. I still remember where he lives from when we dated in highschool and if I have problems picking out the exact house all I have to do is bring along my prom pictures that were taken in front of his house. But I would NEVER do that, I'm not THAT psycho.

I'm a playa on the Internet

Last night I was having a late night conversation via Myspace with the guy who rejected me, at the exact same time I was having a conversation with his best friend. The best part is that at the time they were only separated by bedroom walls.

The guy who rejected me continues to flirt and since I've caught on to his little game he doesn't have the upper hand anymore. I've been really brutal in shutting him down. He predictably responds by trying to call me out on my shit, only it's not shit, it's damn real. I mean it when I say I don't like him and that no I don't want to go out on a date with his fat ass roomate. I don't care if this is the season for giving, I'll give him a big fat kick in the balls if he keeps it up. I take pity on no one.


His best friend has really grown on me though. He's a very sweet, quiet and nerdy guy. Well, Hello! I love nerds. Perfect. Only I have to be very careful in what I say or do cause who knows what the loser who rejected me has said about me to him. In the meanwhile we hang out and talk Sci-Fi and Psychology. I hate Sci-Fi, it makes me want to poke my eyes out but being a playa is all about impressing, even if you have to fake it a little bit.

Busy as a Bee!

So I've been having rehersals for our Christmas production at Church every single night til 1 a.m.

We also have about 10 people, NO JOKE, coming to stay with us for Christmas which prompted my Mom to finally let me re-decorate my room. So there is no time for blogging and I'm sorry.

I'll be completely free after Sunday, and might I remind you that I start drinking again on the 21st? Yeah, didn't think so. That's like next week, mexican martinis anyone?

Love you Internet.

Dear Parents that I love so much,

Stop stealing my car! I know that you are also aware that I have no social life, but sometimes I make plans.

Sorry Snippy!

Remember when I was 16 and you'd hide the keys from me because I was in trouble? Yeah, remember? Well I'm going to start doing that to you guys. Only if I do I end up being the selfish, spoiled, brat anyway.

The only reason I'd ever have kids is so that for once I could always be right.

Hey Genius,

Don't wear sweats when jogging.

You're going to sweat the balls that you don't have off...

Ewwwww.

Return of the dumbass who rejected me

In strolls dumbass who rejected me with a shirt that reads Your Mom is on my Top 8.

Me: Nice shirt.
Him: No, seriously I wish your Mom had a myspace, she'd be on my top 8 for sure. Wow, your Mom is seriously so hot.
Me: Attempts to kick him in the balls.
Him: Blocks me.

Seriously though, wtf?


On another note the Dude really is gay, he came back into town with highlights in his hair. Who does that? Seriously.

I like to dress up and take pictures of myself

It's a shame no one offered to take me out on a date last night isn't it?