The first one is a sad one

Sorry I've been MIA but I've been so incredibly busy with the family visiting. Today is my first day back home since Christmas and this feeling of nostalgia is all over me.

I tend to forget why I hate New Years so much, but I was quickly slapped in the face with that at midnight last night. This is the second year in a row I've been alone on New Years. I should have wrangled up a date, but where? I have been having the dry spell from hell.

First of all Dentist never called and I decided not to go visit Midland. I wanted to cry so badly when everyone around me was bringing in the new year with a kiss, the feeling of loneliness overwhelmed me.

I am not a needy person but today I just want someone to care for. I know he will come when I least expect it, but Jesus could you just hurry up a little bit?