Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Nevers Always Happen

I never thought Id be a workaholic. So far this week, two twelve hour days. Straight 12 hours no lunch break both days, and are we even counting the 10 hours overtime I put in last week?

I never thought Id be fat, and well Im pretty damn fat.

I never thought that I would let someone screw me over more than once, I have now let this person screw me over well past 5 times. I will probably let them screw me over again. I love her, I always will believe there is good in her.

I never thought I could love someone as much as I love him. The depths of my love are way beyond anything I ever imagined feeling. The really weird thing is that this love is something I don't depend on, I don't dwell on, this love is something that is a part of me every second of the day. This love is something that's only mine and I never share it with anyone, especially not him.

I never thought Id be this happy even though in so many ways I don't consider myself complete. I have lots of things I need to work on, lots of things Im lacking, and more problems then I know what to do with. However, I am more happy and emotionally stable than I have ever been in my life. Im pretty sure it's due to the fact that I have no boys to worry about.

Which brings me to the stupidest thing I never thought would happen:

I never thought Id be almost 24 and not have a serious boyfriend.

Oh the joys of this thing they call growing up :)

2 comments:

Snippy said...

Dude, I never thought I'd be ALMOST 30 and NOT MARRIED! *pouting*

Melinda said...

You are not fat!!!! You are BEAUTIFUL!